Tues. Apr 29 2003
Well, I went to class, it was great. I love Wing Chun Kung Fu, and SiFu Gardner and Jarmin. SiFu Jarmin and Sharif have talked to me about investing with them. I am going to give it a try. I need to make some money, and I need to be able to afford to train and move to Italy. Plus it would be nice to make money while I am in Italy as well, and if I don't make it on a pro team, I will have another way to make money. Things are slowly coming together and I am thankful for it, I may be able to earn all the money I need, and not borrow it or rely on someone else to take care of me. Also I will have the time to train because investing won't take all of my day up. I pray to God everyday that I will be able to have the money, time, and skill to train, move to Italy, and become a pro in the premiere league. I think it is all going to work out, just on the lord's schedule. Oh well I have had alot of practice at being patient, I am actually getting good at it too. Tomorrow I start my grueling 5 hour a day training regiment. I will spend time studying about investing as well, and hopefully get this off the ground, the one thing is I need some money to invest, so I might tear off and shingle the General's garage roof, that should help out money wise, and I don't have to worry about paying for Kung Fu class until Sept. I have a goal to double my money every 2 months minimum. I think I can do that. I will be reading SOGR and make money fast, and the investing stuff we have. I am going to find some way to make money! Oh well, that's about it for now.
Thur. Apr 24 2003
So it's my Birthday today. I have a notorious record of my birthday being my worst day of the year. I did some work on that a few years ago, and my birthday has slowly improved to one of my better days of the year. It's early, and I am going to mow the General's orchard in about an hour, it's nice I will have some money, which is good cause I have a speeding ticket I have to pay. I will be spending time with Brenda tonight, and basically I have no idea what this day will turn out like. Oh well, I will write more tonight.
Tues. Apr 22 2003
Well, Hans' dad was arrested over the weekend and his bail is set at $42,250.00 It's almost surreal. At least his Mother is feeling better about it, and the family will hopefully get better without him around. (for some reason that doesn't sound right) In other news, Brenda and I are together, and we get closer and closer, we have known each other for a year, it's been great. I find it harder and harder to say good bye to her, I just want to be with her, I really do love her. Things at home are better, I rarely argue with my family now, and my moods are better. Who knows what will happen next, I am juggling now as well as running, I have decided to run a mile as fast as I can on the days that I am not running long distance, except for Saturday, I will do plyometrics then. Hopefully in a month I will be running a minimum of 5 miles every other day, and doing the full workout of plyometrics at least once a week, and spending at least 5 hours a day doing a soccer related activity. I am going to talk to my Bishop about a Temple recommend, and I will also talk to my dad about receiving the melchezidech (sp?) priesthood. I get to Meet Brenda's parents on the 25th, I am nervous, but I think it will all go well.
Wed. Apr 16 2003
I went running today, it feels good to go running. I am not running as far as I would like, but I am getting there. I think in the next 2 weeks I will start to actively get a sponsor. I have been throwing pottery, it's great to be doing that again. I will start juggling and kicking a soccer ball tomorrow, and see what I can do about an actual daily schedule. I am slowly getting where I want to be, and actually doing it this way I am getting farther, faster, then I did when I tried it other ways. Brenda and I are alot closer, and I am going to meet her parents next weekend. I'm excited and feel just a lil bit of apprehension, but I guess that is normal. Brandon and his family, and J.L. are going to california to install satellites, and maybe if no other sponsors pan out, I might be able to borrow $10,000.00 from J.L. So all in all not too bad, just have alot of work ahead of me, but I don't feel overwhelmed by it anymore. That's about it.
Wed. Apr 9 2003
Hans, don't kill me, but I forgot what I was suppposed to write here! Tell me tomorrow and I will put it up for tomorrow's entry. I have not written in over 2 weeks. I got MRI's taken, turns out that I have something in my brain, it could be just liquid, it could be the tumor grew back, it could be inflamed tissue, or basically anything else. They are not going to do anything unless it enlarges. I spent a week and a half working on Brandon's house, that was hard, I was struggling with severe depression at the time, and I barely struggled through it. I went to Brenda's place straight from St. George, and over the weekend she became my Girlfriend. When I got home things got complicated, I was really depressed, and struggling to do anything. I changed my dosage of medication, and things seem to be getting better, I hope that soon I will finally find a balance between no side effects, and getting the results I want. Things seem rough with Brenda and I, nicole talked about how I used to have a different girl at the house each week, and I would always say the same things, and they all fell for it... and Brenda was present at the time. It disturbed her, and she asked me if I was playing her, I said there was nothing I could say that would let her know one way or the other. I also told her that I would most likely go for a girl who lived only a few minutes away instead of 90 min. away, if I was only looking for action. I have done some EFT (tapping) with my mom, it actually worked this time, so I will do some more. Taylor Rigby called me, and we hung out tonight, got some pie and talked for 2 and a half hours. I like her, she has a boyfriend now, and he treats her well, so I am happy for her. I hope we never lose contact. I missed 2 and a half weeks of Kung Fu, and Butoh, I feel horrible about that, SiFu Gardner called me to see what was going on, I told him I went to help my brother, and that I was suffering from severe depression, but that I would be to class on Tues. I went, and I feel great. I am going to continue attending class as much as I have, I need it. I am also running on the days that I don't have class, and soon I will be playing with a soccer ball too, I have a dream to fulfill! Other than that things are tough, but looking up.